Am I a gay masochist?

[jeremy323]

Please help me figure this out. I'm a 21 year old male. From a young age I've had fantasies about being kidnapped by men. When I was around ten or eleven, I started enjoying them more and it became a sexual fantasy. I get off from thinking about being held down, owned, and physically dominated by a really big, fat man with strong arms and a big belly. I'm really small, short and thin, and the body size comparison turns me on. I fantasize about him squeezing/smothering me, making me cook and clean for him, and being tied up by him. I don't really fantasize about him hitting me or abusing me sexually, but maybe a little emotionally, like making fun of my size. Is this normal? I've tried so hard to understand my sexuality. I like big men but I don't like sexual intercourse, so it's confusing. Am I just a gay masochist? By the way, I never think of myself in a dominant position. I like the feeling of being owned, like a prisoner.

[MistressBitch]

Define "normal". It's perfectly acecptable to have these sort of fantasies. It sounds like you are submissive. Just need to find someone like minded who's willing to play along in the dominant role.