Please help me figure this out. I'm a 21 year old male. From a young age I've had fantasies about being kidnapped by men. When I was around ten or eleven, I started enjoying them more and it became a sexual fantasy. I get off from thinking about being held down, owned, and physically dominated by a really big, fat man with strong arms and a big belly. I'm really small, short and thin, and the body size comparison turns me on. I fantasize about him squeezing/smothering me, making me cook and clean for him, and being tied up by him. I don't really fantasize about him hitting me or abusing me sexually, but maybe a little emotionally, like making fun of my size. Is this normal? I've tried so hard to understand my sexuality. I like big men but I don't like sexual intercourse, so it's confusing. Am I just a gay masochist? By the way, I never think of myself in a dominant position. I like the feeling of being owned, like a prisoner.